3 In a Row

1. Get up @ 6:00a
2. Exercise
3. Meditate

A little ragged (didn't meditate until bed time last night), but just completed 3rd day in a row.  Near term goal...7 in a row.

Notes: Stopped running @  ~7 minutes, 2 laps.  A little stiff in shins, but didn't get above target heart rate until after 1st full lap.  Was hitting max in less than 1/2 lap. May just be lower pace, we'll see. Did 15 assisted push ups (on McDougal rock). Am tired, so meditation was sleepy.  Repeat later after nap?

Back on Track "Literally"

I have been in a real slump emotionally. Mostly fear around money.  Yesterday and today I went to the MacDougal track and ran/walked a mile with my heart monitor.  I run until I get just out of my zone (140bpm) then walk until I am under 120.  I finished the mile in 14:44 yesterday.  It felt much faster today, but when I finished it was 14:43, wow.

So the plan is....wake @ 6:00a, run, meditate...get on with my day.  2 days in a row, let's go for 7 in a row.

5.0 Self-Discovery then Reversal of Fortune

In a Ted Talk Mike Rowe (of Dirty Jobs) explains his personal experience of anagorisis and peripeteia; for Mike is was the realization that biting a sheep's balls off was a superior method of castration to the PETA sanctioned rubber bands. This Aristotelian device in Greek tragedy is one of self discovery and then reversal of fortune. It has really struck a chord with me. While I have found it nearly impossible to keep the terms in my working vocabulary, I want this desperately to manifest in my life.

 

It will be/is a reverse tragedy....it has been a tragedy, now I've seen the error of my ways and have reversed course.  The anagorisis is the recognition that I have been so negative and willing to blame the world for all of my troubles, preventing me from a  healthy response. The peripeteia will be/is my new positive direction in all things....

each frustration will become a blessing (an opportunity to let go of anger and feel loved);
each negative judgement will become an exercise in compassion;
each fear will become an exercise in faith;
each shirking will become a call to action;
each avoidance will become a foundation of integrity;
each outburst will become a smile.  

Blessing, compassion, faith, action, integrity...smile.

Anagorisis (Greek): in Aristotelian tragedy is the moment in a play or other work when a character makes a critical discovery. Especially when followed by peripeteia.

Peripeteia (Greek): is a reversal of circumstances, or turning point. The term is primarily used with reference to works of literature. The English form of peripeteia is peripety.

Why Burton 5.0?  Each new number signifies a major new direction based on a conscious decision.

Burton 1.0  Born

Burton 2.0  Mother strategically moved us from Indianapolis to Bethesda (6 years old)

Burton 3.0  Took stock of my life at 25, back to school (GT) then on to career in IT

Burton 4.0  Married Cindy, moved to Carrboro, blessed with Alex, Julia, Weejee & Dora

Burton 5.0  Reboot by embracing my maturity, integrity, passion and responsibility

In The Eddy + Tattoo Idea

Eddy: The swirling of a fluid and the reverse current created when the fluid flows past an obstacle.

So not quite "in the flow" but aware I have been stuck and paddling back in to the flow.

Current focus is diet & exercise....I will be fit.  My max weight was 220lbs...using that as reference point for losing 68.5 lbs (found stone weight). Trying to lose 1/3 lb per day, until BP pills need refill (about 90 days).  For last 3 days have been on track.  Gone from 217 to under 215. No exercise yet.

Set "trigger" for meditating....Walk dogs...coffee yes/no....meditate.

Need to create trigger for exercise.


Idea for Tattoo...possibly with Buddha on tank

http://www.forestholder.com/insight-identity/