Who to Fall in Love with First: 6 Ways to Love Yourself

Wow, really not doing well.  I completely zoned out on an MKP enrollment call last week. When I realized what I had done, I felt like I had been drugged or in some somnambulistic "make a really bad decision" mode.

I worked through it somewhat during the staff meeting for the next NWTA weekend in December. But I really hit pay dirt when I called back Gary Franks to apologize. His advice was quit beating myself up. Get in integrity. Love yourself.  Below is a piece from little buddha on that subject:

6 Ways to Love Yourself

1. Be kind to yourself.

2. Feel the love within you and be that love.

3. Give yourself a break.

4. Embrace yourself.

5. Be grateful.

 “I am truly blessed to have ____________________________, because __________________(why?)_____________.”

You will immediately start loving yourself more when you realize all the things you’re grateful for in your life.

6. Give yourself in service to others.

 “I slept and dreampt that life was joy. I awoke and saw that life was service. I acted and behold, service was joy.” ~Rabindranath Tagore

Trying it now... I am truly blessed to have MKP in my life because I just got incredible support from Gary Franks (why?) when I called him to apologize for missing the enrollment call last week.

Going forward:

I am truly blessed to have      because   (why?)

Total Bust...Reboot once again

Wow... got to a shaky day 3 of 40 and went off track.  What's new? What's new is a new big picture.  I've been planning/fantasizing about a cross country trip on a motorcycle.  If I can pull it off, it will happen because everything else in my life will be working, e.g., finances, family, fitness, mission, get-it-doneness. So here's the plan/Vision.

Round Trip Coast to Coast on Honda Super Magna

Mission: Just do it..
MKP, Best Motorcycle Rides, Tenkara Fishing, Manifesting the Dream.

Basics have not changed...just getting a focus/capstone.

Starting 40 day effort to Focus on basics (on day 3)

Wow,,,haven't posted since August, it's now October!!!   Coming back to earth...back with same focus...

1. Get up @ 6:00a
2. Exercise
3. Meditate
4. Eat Moderately
5. Post Progress Daily
6. Goal...40 days (last Nov 30) in a row of 2,3,4. Be under 200lbs by end of 40 days.

Day 1, Oct 22, 2013   Day 40 Nov 30, 2013

If I Ex, Med & Eat, I get a "well done" for the day.  I'm working on day 3 of 40.

Start: Tuesday Oct 22, 2013  Day:
1. Ex: 15m Med 5m Eat (poorly, but better) 217.7lbs
2. Ex 20m, Med 10m  Eat (poorly, but better) 218.5lbs (from pig out 2 days ago + no pill)
2. Ex: ?  Med 15m, Eat (Better so far) 216.5lbs.

3 In a Row

1. Get up @ 6:00a
2. Exercise
3. Meditate

A little ragged (didn't meditate until bed time last night), but just completed 3rd day in a row.  Near term goal...7 in a row.

Notes: Stopped running @  ~7 minutes, 2 laps.  A little stiff in shins, but didn't get above target heart rate until after 1st full lap.  Was hitting max in less than 1/2 lap. May just be lower pace, we'll see. Did 15 assisted push ups (on McDougal rock). Am tired, so meditation was sleepy.  Repeat later after nap?

Back on Track "Literally"

I have been in a real slump emotionally. Mostly fear around money.  Yesterday and today I went to the MacDougal track and ran/walked a mile with my heart monitor.  I run until I get just out of my zone (140bpm) then walk until I am under 120.  I finished the mile in 14:44 yesterday.  It felt much faster today, but when I finished it was 14:43, wow.

So the plan is....wake @ 6:00a, run, meditate...get on with my day.  2 days in a row, let's go for 7 in a row.

5.0 Self-Discovery then Reversal of Fortune

In a Ted Talk Mike Rowe (of Dirty Jobs) explains his personal experience of anagorisis and peripeteia; for Mike is was the realization that biting a sheep's balls off was a superior method of castration to the PETA sanctioned rubber bands. This Aristotelian device in Greek tragedy is one of self discovery and then reversal of fortune. It has really struck a chord with me. While I have found it nearly impossible to keep the terms in my working vocabulary, I want this desperately to manifest in my life.

 

It will be/is a reverse tragedy....it has been a tragedy, now I've seen the error of my ways and have reversed course.  The anagorisis is the recognition that I have been so negative and willing to blame the world for all of my troubles, preventing me from a  healthy response. The peripeteia will be/is my new positive direction in all things....

each frustration will become a blessing (an opportunity to let go of anger and feel loved);
each negative judgement will become an exercise in compassion;
each fear will become an exercise in faith;
each shirking will become a call to action;
each avoidance will become a foundation of integrity;
each outburst will become a smile.  

Blessing, compassion, faith, action, integrity...smile.

Anagorisis (Greek): in Aristotelian tragedy is the moment in a play or other work when a character makes a critical discovery. Especially when followed by peripeteia.

Peripeteia (Greek): is a reversal of circumstances, or turning point. The term is primarily used with reference to works of literature. The English form of peripeteia is peripety.

Why Burton 5.0?  Each new number signifies a major new direction based on a conscious decision.

Burton 1.0  Born

Burton 2.0  Mother strategically moved us from Indianapolis to Bethesda (6 years old)

Burton 3.0  Took stock of my life at 25, back to school (GT) then on to career in IT

Burton 4.0  Married Cindy, moved to Carrboro, blessed with Alex, Julia, Weejee & Dora

Burton 5.0  Reboot by embracing my maturity, integrity, passion and responsibility

In The Eddy + Tattoo Idea

Eddy: The swirling of a fluid and the reverse current created when the fluid flows past an obstacle.

So not quite "in the flow" but aware I have been stuck and paddling back in to the flow.

Current focus is diet & exercise....I will be fit.  My max weight was 220lbs...using that as reference point for losing 68.5 lbs (found stone weight). Trying to lose 1/3 lb per day, until BP pills need refill (about 90 days).  For last 3 days have been on track.  Gone from 217 to under 215. No exercise yet.

Set "trigger" for meditating....Walk dogs...coffee yes/no....meditate.

Need to create trigger for exercise.


Idea for Tattoo...possibly with Buddha on tank

http://www.forestholder.com/insight-identity/