Annamarie

I need the foundation of solid sleep & and early start. To reset my sleep clock; get tired, get to bed on time, wake early (6:00ish). NO NAPS! When getting tired:

• Get physical
• Stay actively engaged 
• Stay on my Feet

When learning to reduce reactivity/anger...Use DTE dog training methodology

Don't focus on the reactivity, create environment for success.

1. Establish who's in charge/Human
2. Obedience/Discipline
3. Job to do/Relieve pressure of being in charge

Using same approach for me:

1. Establish who's in charge/Pneuma/Calm Observer
2. Discipline: Meditation, Ego subservient to Calm Observer
3. Job to do: Observe, Let anger go. Be Here Now

Definition of pneuma:

1. in theology : Soul, Spirit specifically Holy Spirit: The adherents of these movements believe that the pneuma—Holy Spirit—plays a central role in their lives and their communities …— David Maxwell

2. in classical medicine : an invisible liquid or vapor held to travel throughout the body and to be necessary to and associated with life Pneuma, according to ancient Greeks and Romans, was a driving force in the body, necessary for maintaining bodily functions.— Judy Duchan

3. in Stoicism : a mixture of air and fire held to be the divine organizing principle of the universe.

Of the four elements, the Stoics identify two as active (fire and air) and two as passive (water and earth). The active elements, or at least the principles of hot and cold, combine to form breath or pneuma. Pneuma, in turn, is the 'sustaining cause' … of all existing bodies and guides the growth and development of animate bodies.— Dirk Baltzly 

The distinctive contribution of Stoicism, at any rate by the time of Chrysippus, was to extend the explanatory role of pneuma beyond individual animal life, and to make it the vital power of the world as a whole. … Pneuma is the vehicle of the divine 'reason' (logos) which pervades and governs the entire world …— David Sedley

Note: Also great song by Tool.

Shit Show

Morning Routine, Completed at 6:30pm. Better late than never.

Trying to get on track with meditation. Took bath 1st, bad idea. While in the tub, knock on the door. Got called down stairs, Rory made huge poop in the house, went to clean it up, sink slow...on and on. Moral of the story.. Do meditation 1st thing while still in the room, do it early. Seriously resisting change, got a beer at 4pm to get things back on track, after meditating for 10 minutes.

Can't complain, rough, but going forward. Need to: Take care of bills/paperwork. Pull Synchronicity sigh off the truck? (Paul suggested)

Wheel of Life

From ADHD Coaching

Document in Google Drive.

Annamarie June 15

1. Meditate 1st thing upon waking, Text emoji.
2. Set reminder when waking up (Ganesh bedside, got it)
3. Pick meditation type (Sarah text, got it!)
4. Introduced idea of Metanoia (see below) Annamarie thinks of this as teaching yourself to listen
5. Mediation/Day debrief in evening (log here)
6. Reinstitute 5 morning rituals (put on calendar)  https://tim.blog/wp-content/uploads/2018/07/5-morning-rituals-that-help-me-win-the-day-july2018.pd (see below)
7.  Do surveys , Character Strength & Wheel of Life
8. Make reminder w/# mail goals,,

 Emotional Control

 Act on Goals & Desires

 Financial sustainability by helping others

(Created poster/Reminder)

#1—MAKE MY BED

#2—MEDITATE

#3—DO 5 TO 10 REPS OF SOMETHING (Jump Start)

#4—PREPARE “TITANIUM TEA”

#5—MORNING PAGES OR 5-MINUTE JOURNAL

How to meditate: Thich Nhat Hanh Foundation

https://thichnhathanhfoundation.org/meditate

Sitting meditation is very healing. We realize we can just be with whatever is within us–our pain, anger, and irritation, or our joy, love, and peace. We are with whatever is there without being carried away by it. Let it come, let it stay, then let it go. No need to push, to oppress, or to pretend our thoughts are not there. Observe the thoughts and images of our mind with an accepting and loving eye. We are free to be still and calm despite the storms that might arise in us.

After practicing sitting meditation, we often practice indoor walking meditation (sometimes called Kinh Hanh). We take one step with each in-breath and one step with each out-breath. Aware of the sangha around us, we feel in harmony with the larger body. Everybody is moving together slowly and mindfully.

Metanoia

In Christian theology, metanoia is commonly understood as "a transformative change of heart; especially: a spiritual conversion." The term suggests repudiation, change of mind, repentance, and atonement; but "conversion" and "reformation" may best approximate its connotation. 

Metanoia has been used in psychology since at least the time of American philosopher/psychologist William James to describe a process of fundamental change in the human personality.

William James used the term metanoia to refer to a fundamental and stable change in an individual's life-orientation.[1] Carl Gustav Jung developed the usage to indicate a spontaneous attempt of the psyche to heal itself of unbearable conflict by melting down and then being reborn in a more adaptive form – a form of self healing often associated with the mid-life crisis and psychotic breakdown, which can be viewed as a potentially productive process.[2] Jung considered that psychotic episodes in particular could be understood as an existential crisis which might be an attempt at self-reparation: in such instances metanoia could represent a shift in the balance of the personality away from the persona towards the shadow and the self.[3]

Jung's concept of metanoia was an influence on R.D. Laing and his emphasis on the dissolution and replacement of everyday ego consciousness.[4] Laing's colleague, David Cooper, considered that "metanoia means change from the depths of oneself upwards into the superficies of one's social appearance" – a process that in the second of its three stages "generates the 'signs' of depression and mourning".[5] Similarly influenced was the therapeutic community movement. Ideally, it aimed to support people whilst they broke down and went through spontaneous healing, rather than thwarting such efforts at self-repair by strengthening a person's existing character defences and thereby maintaining the underlying conflict.

The Dutch psychiatrist Jan Foudraine wrote extensively about it, tracing its history through the work of Jung and Laing, and eventually considering it “a permanent change in gestalt.” He cites an example where one sees a black vase, then one blinks, and instead one sees two white faces in profile opposite each other (the Rubin vase).[6]

In transactional analysis, metanoia is used to describe the experience of abandoning an old scripted self or false self for a more open one: a process which may be marked by a mixture of intensity, despair, self-surrender, and an encounter with the inner void.[7]

Meditation/Debrief: 10 minutes in car w/dogs. Not perfect, but better than expected.

Walked 2+ milesish for 3rd day in a row.